It has become increasingly clear to me that with each passing day, I am closer to stepping out of this house, this area, this country and lifestyle that I grew up in. With every waking night I spend imagining the scene at the airport where I say goodbye until the end of the year, I feel somewhat intimidated at the prospects that lay ahead of me. It definitely wasn't so much as the fear of disaster, of every bad thing imaginable, but more of the unknown. It's about stepping into a new territory, somewhere so alien to me that scares me. I've never walked alone in downtown Kuala Lumpur and now I'm being thrown into another country.
I often wonder what I'll miss about this country. I've said many a times that I can't wait to leave to another area. However, now that it's fast becoming a reality I feel like I will have troubles letting go of all things near and dear.
Hmm, as I'm saying this though, I can't quite find something I will miss indefinitely. As of this moment XD.
I'm sure I will embark on a new exciting chapter of my life soon enough. However, if it was one thing I've learnt this year is that people who have such high expectations will end up disappointed when things aren't in their plan or control. With that said, Im'ma take things easy and just enjoy the show. Because with every turning page of the book we shouldn't expect a scene to unfold, but merely to be surprised by the turn of events, and to greet it with open arms.
You're always afraid other people won't be able to see the real you. But maybe it's because you can't see your own self.
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